Friday, 15 May 2015

I never wanted to change the world...

...but maybe somehow I will anyway - if only for a few people. I'm not sure why I started to blog except as much as I love IG I find that too long captions aren't the point and sometimes I want to say more. Sometimes I don't and then there will be weeks without a post - like now. Sorry :-S I know that is a no-no in blogging, but I also strongly believe in not writing just to write. You need to have something to say. Also I've been busy. Reading. Ok, I was reading but that's busy too.


Lately several people have told me they have been inspired by me. That left me so incredibly flattered and humbled (after my initial thought that they must be mad ;) ). You all know you only see parts of my life (and anyones life) on social media. And maybe that's okay. It doesn't show the panic attacks, the shouting, the fighting and the tears and the hurt. But we all know those feelings. Would the ugliness make anyone feel better? Or does showing the good, the surviving, make people want to fight their own demons to create a better life for themselves? I have come to believe the latter. And I have found that in creating my IG-persona I have too become a better person. I want to be that person! I am re-creating myself as the person I want to be.


I measure myself and my life in others. Which sometimes makes me make bad decisions - I want pizza, but I know I haven't been eating well and should eat something healthy. But then I see someone on IG eating pizza and I think, if she can so can I. It doesn't matter if that person has been eating salad and juice for two weeks. If they can, so can I. But if that works with the 'bad' things (pizza isn't bad, it's just...unfortunate at times ;) ) surely it must work with the good as well? I know we constantly hear about people feeling bad about their own lives when they see others having great experiences, getting free stuff and eating all sorts of amazing food. But maybe we should rather see as inspiration to do something good for ourselves.

I feel happy when I see good things happening to my IG-friends. Sure I also feel jealous from time to time but in that smiling: Man, I wish that was me - not in the: That bitch, that should have happened to me.

Social media can't make you sad or miserable. It can't take up too much of your time. It's just a media. You are the one controlling how much time you use and how it makes you feel, in the people you choose to follow and the responses you give to others posts.

I'm usually not this thinky-feely. But it really has left me moved that someone would find me inspirational. And I want to thank every single person who has taken the time to read my musings or like my pictures or taken the time to comment. If I haven't responded I am sorry, but life gets in the way sometimes. I really do value every comment and every like.

I'm lucky to have you all in my life. And now I'll stop being sappy and feelings and shit ;)

xoxo,

Kathrine

8 comments:

  1. You're so spot on with social media! It's fun to see Insta friends on their adventures! I am the same way with food - I am constantly battling between "whatever - you only live once, eat what you want" and "no, I have to be better. My clothes won't fit soon!" Ugh, life! ;)

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    1. I know! Especially the 'my clothes won't fit'! My wardrobe is too damn expensive to replace with larger sizes haha! >.<

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  2. I think I definitely buy things that I wouldn't do if it weren't for blogging and of course, WE do control how much time we go on there/here. It's always nice when you post, even if it is fairly infrequent, you have lots of depth to you and you're nice! Even if you get a bit envious! We all do.I sometimes think "I've been blogging 10 years and those x, y, z people never come to visit me and yet they go and visit x who has been blogging 2 minutes," and then I feel horrible about feeling despondent and realise it's just that x is a lot more interesting than me!
    I do love your INstagram- I'm not on there but you're saved in my bookmarks and it's a real treat to see what you're up to when I check it out! I always wanted to be a children's librarian. I never did but before I taught just music to kids, I taught all subjects and I used to have my own library in class and managed to get lots of kids enthused about books so I guess I did a little bit of the thing I wanted to!!
    xx

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    1. Oh by the way, just so you know,I am wearing a fez. I wear a fez now. Fezzes are cool!!x

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    2. Me too! It's horrible :D Sometimes I even know the dress won't fit me very well and I still get it because it looks nice on someone else >.< I'm an idiot haha.

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  3. "Or does showing the good, the surviving, make people want to fight their own demons to create a better life for themselves? I have come to believe the latter. And I have found that in creating my IG-persona I have too become a better person. I want to be that person! I am re-creating myself as the person I want to be."
    I love what you wrote and it is so true. I think alike - you try to be like them - not in a bad copying way, but in a improving yourself way. And the persona you create on IG and othe Social Media is (for most people) a better, a happier person than you are and it really make you want to be happy.
    Thank you for your beautiful posts. <3

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    1. Aw you're welcome. Thank YOU for reading them :)

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